Change...What everyone given a long enough time line will inevitably want from me. It's also in all likelihood what I will never do. How I am or you are in essence is all that we have. I own it. I own me. I have always been exactly what you see. I have no agenda, its all right there on the surface. I am black & white. I am middle of the road even keel. I am fiercely independent and hard headed. I am a socialized hermit...a zen white peaceful calm in the middle of most any storm. I say what I think, but not all that I think and the things I say are thought out. I exist in my head and feelings are about the last thing I'll find necessary to tell. I think actions speak loudest and in general talk is cheap. I don't argue and push my point or beliefs on others. I will give you plenty of rope, if you choose to hang yourself with it then that's your choice. I like to drink alone. Alone time, written words and music calm me and connect me. When I get off center I can not realign around people.
The things that attract people the most in the beginning are also the same things that they tire of eventually. I am painfully aware of this...I warn in advance. I still rebel against the basics of society. When backed into a corner I cat up...even if I was curled up sleeping contently in that corner. I'm one stubborn block of a skinny white girl and there really is no changing me.
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